This Week Was Rough

This week was rough, but more on that later. There was also an election, that I didn’t vote in. If I thought my vote would make a difference, I would have shown up, but I wasn’t too worried. It was pretty much a given that the governor would win another term, and local races weren’t that tight anyway. Eh, I guess I should have voted, but I didn’t.

Also, I didn’t know many of the candidates. All I knew were nasty commercials. It would help if candidates actually told us who they were, what they have done in the past, what they believe, what they would like to do, and do so intelligently – like a job resume and interview. But nope, we get to see unflattering pictures of candidates with horns drawn on their heads by their opponents. It’s so silly.

Speaking of silly, we’ll soon be hearing from Donald Trump again as he announces his intent to run for president again. Ugh. Who wants to go through that again? Surely, from a country of 330 million people, there are better choices than the ones we’ve had lately.

It was a rough week for me, too. I have been having bad back pain and difficulty walking. There are times when I feel like I have to hug the walls when walking, so I don’t fall over. The walking issue has been going on for quite a while, but the back pain is fairly new. I found out I have scoliosis, which is causing most, if not all, of the issues. I’d been to the doctor multiple times in the past for the problems I was having, but never had an x-ray of my spine until now. Maybe it just got bad enough to be more obvious. I don’t know. My son and brother also have scoliosis, so apparently it’s genetic.

It’s not the end of the world, but it does affect what I’m able to do, such as heavy lifting and physical labor. My doctor told me to get a different job, since mine has a lot of physical labor, and it will only make it worse. I wasn’t planning to stay long-term in the particular position I’m in now, but I wasn’t planning to need to find something else so soon. So, right now, priority number one is finding a more suitable job or situation for myself.

Luckily, it doesn’t affect me riding a bike. I have a bike-related side business. One of the big reasons I got into bike riding was because I had difficulty walking long distances. I didn’t know why I had so much trouble walking. I thought it was neurological, like MS or something like that. But due to the scoliosis, a lot of pressure is put on my spinal cord, depending upon what I’m doing. Sometimes I feel electrical shocks in my back, and I feel off balance. I’ll be starting physical therapy next month, and hopefully that will help.

I had literally just found out about the diagnosis moments before I fell on my back in the kitchen. The dishwasher door was down, I was putting away dishes and cooking while talking to my son. I stepped backwards, the back of my knees hit the open door, they buckled, and I landed on a load of dishes on my back. So, not only does my upper back hurt now, so does my lower back. I’m not seriously hurt, but it didn’t help matters any. It just put an exclamation point on the issue.

It was difficult finishing out the week at work with this aching back, but I did it. I have options of what to do, but I’m not sure exactly how to do it yet. When you’re single and depending solely upon yourself and your own means, it makes such financial decisions much more difficult. Choosing wrong could be disastrous.

I could go full-time in my own business, which I think is very doable in another six months or so. If I had time to devote to it, I’m sure I’d make more than I’m making now with two sources of income. So, I think I might just make a leap of faith, take out a loan to get by for the next year or so, and just do it. If I can devote myself to it, it’ll work. I’ve been close to a full-time income, just doing it with minimal effort and time.

That’s probably what I’m going to do. I just have to get my ducks in a row. I’m not a gambler, at all. If I didn’t think it would work, I wouldn’t do it. Besides, what’s the worst that could happen? Am I going to regret asking that, considering this week? Haha!

Well, whatever. I’ll deal with it one way or the other, but I’m ready for some smoother sailing.

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